We moved back to Texas in the beginning of December and I am having a harder time at adjusting than I thought I would. We returned to basically the same area where we had lived for a year and a half and I though I'd just pick up right where we left off. Of course I should have known better because once you move away from an area, you can never really "go back". It just isn't the same. People move on with their life...as they should...and that is just the way it is. It has been a hard reality that I've had to face over and over again throughout our moves. Even though facebook is great and we can all connect that way, I have noticed that once I move from an area, people from that area stop commenting on posts or stop interacting with me all together.

I really miss Ohio. I have pushed that ache deep inside since getting here but today it just came up and out of me. Felt good to feel that ache and not just ignore it any longer. Everybody needs to have an ugly cry every now and then, right?

Something that I know about my self and that will never change, is that I *have to* have connections with people, no matter where I live or for how long I'll live there. I need and want friends. I need that connection. It is hard to start over. Don't get me wrong...I love change, I love meeting new people and experiencing new places, but there is always that period of time of having to start completely over and I am tired of doing that....dang it!! I want to belong somewhere. I don't want people to move on with their life without me...dang it!!

I look forward to the day when we can settle down and grow some roots. I'm going to throw a HUGE party when we are in one place for more than three years. It'll be the party of the year and EVERYONE is invited. :)