Faith Instead of Fear

Do you ever get together with a friend and feel like you have 10 years worth of stuff that you want to jam into in one minute? That's how I feel right now and it's driving me bonkers that I can't type as fast as my mind is going. Things are falling into place right and left and putting this puzzle together is thrilling me to the bones and I MUST share all this (as best as I can).

OK...here we go. 

The past few months I have been feeling EXTREME anxiety about the future. Not to sound all cray cray on you or anything, but lets be honest...I feel like the end of the world is coming sooner then we may realize, and the signs of Christs Second Coming are all around us. What is causing me extreme anxiety about that is that we are NOT READY. We have *some* debt and we do not have a sufficient food storage set aside to survive off of for long. The main problem? For a long time we were not having an income (thankfully that has started to change!). So the question that repeated over and over in my mind was "how we do get out of debt and get a food supply...with no money!?" I'd have massive breakdowns at times due to this anxiety. Also the harsh reality that we have not always been wise with our spending habits...especially when it comes to throwing our money down the drain by eating out so often. We are included in the 5 UNwise virgins that were not ready to meet the bridegroom and yet my heart and soul so desires to be part of the 5 wise virgins.  scripture

I saw this quote on Instagram:

There is a difference, therefore, between being "anxiously engaged" and being over-anxious and thus underengaged. 

Elder Neil A Maxwell. 

 There are so many things that I feel like I NEED and SHOULD be doing ( genealogy work, being politically involved etc) that the very thought of it would shut me down. 

I wanted God to deliver us from our mistakes...but I didn't feel deserving of such help.

I was in a dark state of mind for a long time and it wasn't pretty. I decided to go on another facebook cleanse and clear my mind a little bit and just get grounded again. Seeing all the news on facebook wasn't helping my anxiety any. I recently got a few books from Amazon and want to have the time to read them. Apparently I can't be on facebook AND read a few books. I'm working on some major personal issues, if you couldn't tell. ;) It can be hard sometimes putting it all out there for the world to see but for some reason it makes me feel better by being honest with YOU, and myself. 

I have been feeling MUCH better the past few days. I feel like it's actually been building upon itself gradually and I just didn't fully realize it. Since I started focusing on gratitude a couple weeks ago, I feel like it has really shifted me out of darkness into a space of light and peace. Being grateful in ALL things is such a powerful concept and practice!

Out of the five books I recently got, I decided to start with this^^^book, and wow! I wish I had read it YEARS ago! It is a book that I think every single PERSON N.E.E.D.S to read as SOON as possible! Click on THIS LINK to read more about the book and to get a FREE download of it. I had to actually buy a hard copy because I HAVE TO underline things that stand out to me, instead of reading a free ebook version, but hey..if that works for you, great! I am going to start giving this book to people for their birthdays and Christmas presents...but please don't wait...start reading it now. 

Two videos I watched that are also well worth your time.

Check them out and let me know what you think. 

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Life is such a journey, huh? Some days we are incredibly happy and other days...not so much. Thank goodness for a loving and merciful Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and for the Holy Ghost to help guide us on this journey. I'd be so lost without Their help! I know that God is anxiously awaiting to answer our prayers and to help us but we first must ASK. "Ask and ye shall receive", right!? Sometimes the answer is no, but we'd probably be surprised how often the answer is yes, if it aligns with God's will for our highest good. 

At the end of the America movie, the song Home by Phillip Phillips really hit home (how bout that!). I love when I know when God is speaking directly to me. Start looking for that evidence in your own life and you'll see it every where. 

Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

(This post didn't turn out exactly how I had in mind... but at least it's a start to throwing it all out there. The next post will be more specific with what I have been learning).